life

so its 2 am. i have a 10 page research paper due tomorrow at 2:15. well, i guess that would be today. i got tired of writing it so, naturally, i am doing something else. i took a 5 hour energy drink at 11 and it didn't really work at first, but now i feel awake. i got a lot of thoughts tonight.

i am amazed at life. life constantly changes, and so do our relationships with people. i have only been out of high school 2 years, and there have already been a few people who have entered into my life, made a lasting impression, and are slowly leaving.

i haven't been home in about 4 months. this has been the longest stretch of time since i moved to ohio. i miss home, but its more than that. i feel like a piece of me is there, waiting for the rest of me to return. i know who that piece is, but i need to return to familiar faces and places in order to feel whole again. i know i am speaking metaphorically and all of me is right here in ohio. i just feels like once i step of that airplane, i will be able to go "oh yeah. now i remember".

God has a way of using people and places to teach us about life. a familiar voice can bring so much comfort and peace. the same with a familiar scent or sight.

i am learning how once you really start to love people, you never fully separate. there are times of long absences, but love bonds people together forever.

i think that is all i got for now. im gonna get back to that paper. my mother is probably reading this and i know she would probably want me to. and i dont wanna get an F.



JN











hi mom. :)