life

its been a weird few weeks. long. awesome. tiresome. shocking. all at the same time. School has started up for me. It is the fourth week and it is in full gear. So is life.

It is crazy to me how many things can be happening at once time. Sometimes i don't know how we handle it all. I am supposed to be writing an essay for my College Writing class right now, but I feel i need to get my thoughts on paper. so this is the closest thing to paper i got at the moment.

Note: this blog will be just some of my random thoughts about life. i probably won't spell check it.

blogging is werid. liek i have this space and i can put anything i want on it and anyone can read it. i realize that. but at the same time, it is just a bunch of letters strung together in a sequence that delivers a message. what i write goes deeper that what appears on my screen. i can't put my full heart on a web page. i don't even know sometimes what is going on in my heart, or if anything is going on.

sometimes i really suck at listening to people. i have my own agenda sometimes about what i want to talk about. listening is really hard

i think friendships are the most important thing god has given us down here. i dont understand why i am so drawn to value money above faith.

in the midst of these thoughts, i think about what it means to be selfless. is being selfless, me confessing things on my blog for the whole world to see if I want them to tell me how "genuine" or "unselfish" i am? something i have been thinking about lately.

god is really creative. i laughed a lot this week at how different men and women are.


what does good mean? how do we know?

was that question to existential for you? do i even know what existential means?

i have to go to the bathroom really bad. and i am getting a text. i am going to kill two birds with one stone.


...and then write that english paper.


my name is actually curtis, not joshua

C(J)EN